Ex-Gay = Liar

what a load of bullshit!

read his web site, buy his dvds & and purchase his music

he's not lying for the money ... is he?

My Love Life Secrets Revealed!

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves. Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships. It's important to you that your lover is very attractive. You like to have someone to show off. In fights, you speak your mind and don't hold back. You know you're right, and you can get quite angry about it. A break-up usually comes as a shock to you. You always think things are going well.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

"I Am The Only Gay In The Village"

Maybe it just feels that way? Until I went away to undergrad, I did think just like that. Obviously, we learn as young adults that we're not "the only gay in the village." That's when the blossoming begins for us homos. When we learn we're not alone and we're ok. I'm ok - well better than I used to be? Just recently I've realized how my childhood circumstances fed into my loneliness as a child and teen. I was so busy trying to hide my deep, dark, horrible secret feelings from my family that I never noticed that they were keeping real, deep, dark horrible family secrets from me (another whole story). We (my family & myself) were so fixed on not letting the other know our own respective 'secret' - that I cut my family out of my life with ease and few questions. Then when things were becoming increasingly obvious - off to college I went, where I was no longer 'the only gay in the village' and rarely returned home except for holidays. In hindsight, I now understand why my family chose to keep family secrets from me - for my own good, or so they thought. I can only say now, it hurt and I didn't understand when I finally did find these things out in my early 30's. Things that I should have known. Things that changed the way I looked at my childhood situations and the people involved - gayness aside. The truth was out, and I wasn't set free. I was confused, hurt and didn't understand. Who would? Questions filled my head, they still do. I don't have answers; only questions. My point never-the-less is, had being gay not been so taboo or unacceptable in society; I would have been more present to what was going on around me in my childhood home. I had successfully cut my entire family out of my life and they didn't even know; I didn't even know. I was merely doing the best I could - surviving the only way I knew how - in the closet. Today's kids have so much opportunities in their schools with gay awareness groups. When I was in High School, we had a gay who was out. Well, not so much out as continually harassed and made fun of. No one wants to be treated like him. The other students were brutal both physically and mentally. To this day I wonder what happend to him? Tommy, with the cigaretts, bleached hair, and tight clothing befriended by the girls in his grade only. I watched his harrassment from a distance, knowing that his torture was sooner or later going to be my torture. The unavoidable torture, was a burden that went along with being gay I thought. It's only a matter of time before I'm made that miserable on a daily basis. I hid myself away and awaited this treatment from my peers. And it did come, but never, ever as bad as Tommy got it. I used to avoid going to the mall (or anyplace public that my classmates may also be) with my parents for fear that I would be addressed inappropriately by some kid from my High School. And I'd have to deal with not only the humiliation of non-popularity; but of the truth that I was gay.

Angels & Demons

I thoroughly enjoyed this read. It's the same author as The Da Vinci Code, as a matter of fact it's the same main character in this prequel. This time Langdon takes on The Illuminati and the Catholic church. Like Brown's Da Vinci Code, Angels & Demons is filled with historical facts entwined with pure fiction and the lines between the two a blurred wonderfully. While reading this book I thought how much more interesting this book would make into a movie. Perhaps even more so than The Da Vinci Code. In the spirit of not giving away the ending. The ending of the book is a vigorous thrill-ride with a surprise ending and argument that truly brings one to think. Is science proving the existence of God or is it making God obsolete? A good question, right?

Happy Easter!

Linda Eder

Last Saturday night Mr. Adam surprised me with tickets to go see Ms. Linda Eder at Feinstein's at the Regency. It was a great show. She did all standards and none of her signature songs. What a voice on her! She had been ill all week and her previous shows this week had been cancelled since Tuesday. But she went on for our performance. Even on the mend from an illness, she sounded spectacular. Her band was a five piece and they were right there with her. Michael Feinstein was in the audience and she called him up to do a number with her (of course he accompanied on the piano). Oh did I mention that Mr. Feinstein has horribly dyed hair? Note to Feinstein- when you hair dye is faded and you have roots over half an inch long. Don't spike your hair up. It's really obvious under lights.

As for the space, I was so close to Ms. Eder that if I spun around with my arms out I would have knocked her over. What a great time we had; what a great surprise!

CHICAGO - the musical

Well people, last Tuesday my friend Michael took me to see Chicago on Broadway. In the past, I've seen numbers from the show, I've seen videos, I've even seen the movie; however I've never seen the whole show on stage. Now I have. I loved the show. I loved how edgy is was. I thought the show was very, very sexy. The women in the chorus were all busty girls. I can't say I know for sure, but I would bet most of the women in the show had breast implants. And they looked great. As for the men, so beautiful. Breathtakingly beautiful people with barely any clothes on. Who could ask for anything more? As for the leads I saw: Robin Givins played Roxy Heart - badly I might add. She has absolutely no acting talent at all and, at best, her singing voice is mediocre. She has the body of a 14 year old girl and stood out like a sore thumb against the cast of voluptuous bombshell women. She was that bad. Also featured in the show was John O'Hurley playing Billy Flinn - he was perfect for the role. He's the type, for you people in the biz. And the part isn't that vocally challenging so his numbers went well. Overall I would suggest everyone that needs a sexy pick-me-up show; see this -when Givens is out.

Madonna Tickets! - I GOT 'EM

I got them, I got them, I got them! I got 2 (two) tickets to see Madonna here in NYC at Madison Square Garden. Mr. Adam & I will be seeing her royal highness of re-invention this June. What a thrill! I'm speechless, well almost. Luckily I was able to get my tickets through a pre-sale since I'm a member of her official fan club ICON. I hope all of you people have good luck in getting yours. Peace, Love and Vogue!

V for Vendetta

I took Mr. Adam to go see this movie on the IMAX. It was great. And the IMAX part...absolutely worth the extra $4.50 a ticket. This movie told in post-modern England was wonderfully made. Visually stunning and well acted. The director had a passion for this movie and it was definitely conveyed. There is however, a very, very strong political statement in this movie. And I urge everyone to listen to the statement. Regardless, you're gonna love the movie. Mr. Adam & I did.